For years, i was trying to live up to an image(on here) of what others created for me. It started on espn. It grew over at WSI. Everytime i tried to be myself, i would get the exact comments im getting here. People love BMR because its entertaining. Well yeah, it is for me too. The problem is, i let bmr overtake Brian in my everyday life. I fought night and day with who used to be my future wife. I am not saying I am the one to blame, because she is the one who cheated, but it all lead to deep soul searching for me. I realized that shes not the one, but it brought great sadness. I lost my best friend and future wife. Shes not right for me okay, but i lost my best friend. I decided that no other person can truly make us happy and no other person can cause us to react. Its all on us. Well, its all on me and i am going to ensure that i live the rest of my life as a happy person. I wont say that i will be perfect in the future, just dont expect me to be "trolling" as Brando likes to say.