Steff

Why don't you mind your own business. He's a big boy and if he doesn't like the humor I'm sure he'll tell me about it.

Damn.. if I hadn't already driven all the way home already....

You're not crazy and I'd take Ms Cleo's word over Levine anyday.

A lot of people did a little bit of questioning the unprovens (Willie, Shingo, Uribe...). Not so much what they had done or not done.. a lot was made of not replacing Colon. Some complaining about getting rid of Miles. That's about most of it.

Well now that the easily amused are taken care of.. the day is complete.

You kids and your begging..

Ziiiiinnngggg...

Well it's not like you have a high-maintenance hair do..

That reminds me.. he doesn't give you his passes for the SC when he gives you his tickets, does he...?

He did that in the papers.

You got that right. They'll get everyone there.. make $20 or $30K off of dinner in the SC, and drinks in the bar.. then call it a double header tomorrow or Wednesday.

C'mon Aboz... you know he's not the final decision maker.. just the voice. The "hidden" board needs to be called out.

I think they'll have extra anyway.. somehting about some crazy "female fan"..

They'll replay it about 5:30ish.

There, too.

For some strange reason I forsee another "kid get out of the way, that's MY ball" incident...

She plays the Sax, too..? Multi-talented gal

You little pervs.

Hu?

Keep lookin.. it's free somewhere.

Ewwwwuuuu...

Which Jenna..? The one that won, or the one with the 2 daughters?

I know. And I am so not like this so I don't understand why I can't just say a prayer and move on...

I don't know why.. but I'm trying hard to "understand" and I'm struggling with it. I've had my share of bad hands in life, and naturally felt at the end of the rope a couple times. But the fear of pain, or mess, or something... just scares me so badly that I KNOW I would NEVER be able to take my own life. I don't know why I'm trying so hard to understand. I did the "say a prayer and be thankful" thing.. but for some reason I am consumed with trying to understand.

Jim and I found out that a very dear friend of ours son killed himself. Shot himself. 34 years old. I spent most of the weekend thinking about how someone could do such a thing. What thoughts run through a person's head as they sit there with a gun cocked at their temple or in their mouth. I just can't imagine it. I wonder if he was scared. If it hurt. So morbid. His life didn't seem so bad. He was a functioning (closet) alcoholic. His father had done so much for him (gave him a prominant job in his agency), he had a nice house, a couple cool dogs that were like children. A girlfriend occasionally - he was more into doing things with his other single guy friends and liked his freedom too much to marry at this point. I know it's real easy to say "it can't be that bad", and I've been trying to keep in mind that no one knows anything about anyone elses private hell.. but I just can't imagine (from being so close with the entire family) that things were "that bad" (obviously they were). The only thing I am sure of is that suicide is such a cowardly selfish act. The pain that his father is dealing with, he will live with the rest of his life. The vision of seeing his son dead.. I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.