Beastly,
I dunno why but the first 3 years of high school were fun but they sucked at the same time. You can tell now among the seniors that they realize this is the last time we'll see each other.
If you guys just went to a high school my size you'd be forced to like each other. I also think going out for basketball was one of the best choices I ever made. Of course I never thought we'd suck to the extent that I play as much as I do, but it was neat to get an ovation last nite. You've got to learn to care less what other people think. A couple of years ago I was the nerdy smart kid that wanted to be part of the "cool kids" and sorta was but sorta wasn't. Being part of a team kind of forces ya to talk and make friends with each other, and going to a small HS you won't get out of it. I found out both basketball captains voted for me to be team captain and I missed it by one vote (damn juniors ). I'm tennis team captain. Would I have planned on any of this say as a sophomore or a junior? No, I was depressed too a lot of the time. But I went out for basketball as a junior and it's been uphill ever since. I know I've just been rambling but I feel really good now.
I guess the biggest thing I learned is you gain nothing out of feeling sorry for yourself or trying to make other people feel sorry for yourself.