September 11, 2001 would have been my late son's 20th birthday, so I wasn't really in a normal state of mind anyway. I was watching the Today Show on NBC where they reported a commeter plane had hit the WTC. I immediately turned over to CNN so I wouldn't have to listen to a Katie Couric fluff interview instead of the hard news. I was watching live whenplane #2 hit. The word "terrorist" came out of my mouth instantly.
Later, it occured to me that Sept 11 would no longer be a day for just me to mourn, as I would be sharing it with the entire nation. I had, and still do have, mixed feelings on that one. I know it's somewhat selfish, but when it comes to emotions at level, you can't change them. You can only accept them.